Taken July 4, 2021
i hate that I’m tired all day then the insomniac comes out at night… and the intrusive thoughts just pick up more and more and more as time comes on until I’m laying in bed wondering where I went wrong… wondering why my mind wants to break my already broken spirit down even further…. what did I even do to you.
And while I know others may relate….. it’s just so very lonely to be going through it, because I feel like I can’t even begin to explain what I feel, and that’s probably the most lonely part of it…. that feeling like you’re the only one who is experiencing his mind actively attacking itself… it’s asinine.
be thankful if you’re not someone who goes through this…. 4 hours a night because you’re too tired to stay awake from the water works that drain out the side of your eye that you pass out and hope to the heavens above your dreams don’t just carry the thoughts all night…..
I’m too tired for this shit
I’m tired of people saying if you can’t love yourself, then you can’t love anyone. But from my experience, the people that love others the most fiercely are the ones who don’t or in more appropriate words are unable to love themeselves. They can’t love themselves but they still have the heart to love others selflessly. Don’t take that away from them, don’t demean their love for others, for it is pure just like other people’s love.
— we can and we do love others
“Sometimes I don’t even know how to react when I’m hurt. I just zone out for a while until it all hits at once.”
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“I can’t remember how many times I said I was fine just because I didn’t want to bother someone with my issues.”
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I don’t even care about anything anymore. Don’t care about the future. Don’t think about the present. I’m just stuck in my past, reliving the same torturous memories over and over again
I look at others and I feel so sad for myself. I’m just existing. And they are living. They are able to move on and get ahead in life but all I do is stay stuck in the past and suffer
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